and he knows good T-shirts, I am going to take a page out of @danilgee01 's book and ask you peeps to try and find me a name for my blog because I think I need a new one. The current one just makes me seem like too much of a female, which I am the furthest thing from (as seen by my newly grown facial hair that is here to stay)

I don't know what the prize will be but I'm sure it will be worth it so please contribute and give us some mad opinions y'all.

The Game.

Possibly the most dominant force in all of Moorebank High School.

Hell bent on winning, by any means necessary.

Please exercise extreme caution when approaching this individual in any form of competition for all feeble attempts to out do or even come close to finishing and beating the game will be dashed instantly by the Cerebral Assassins extensive knowledge of all things to do with winning.

Only few have had the privilege to say that they have beaten the game, this small group of elite, high potential warriors must now band together in the hope of defeating The Game consistently, by any means necessary. I write this in the hope that all those capable of beating HHH will join with me and a small task force in an attempt to overthrow the future hall-of-famer, and allow the praise that comes from winning to be spread to all those who deserve it, not just The Game.

So I tend to read a lot of blogs and they always seem to get me thinking. One recent one imparticluar, very recent actually, got me thinking about two things:
1. I don't blog enough. I mean seriously I've done like 2 of these.
2. I honestly don't really like most of the people who could be considered as my "friends"

We're not really going to go into number 1 just yet but I'm sure I will eventually, but for now lets just stick with 2.

It's really that I don't like the people, they're all really nice people and I prefer them to anyone else, but I just cannot connect with them. We will talk, make jokes but none of it ever feels right, I always feel like I'm just lying to them all the time, just so I can hold out on killing myself because of the boredom that would ensue if I were to just sit there by myself every day. I don't like the fact that I'm like this but I can't really help it. The worst thing seems to be that I haven't realised this has been going on for so long and now it seems like it's not really worth the effort to try and make a change to this. I didn't even notice that I was going through it when one of my friends who I like to think I'm very close with was going through the same thing.

This then made me reflect on the friends that I do have and that I don consider really close and that I always enjoy being with no matter what, there's six of them. Only half of which are in the same year in school as me, and only one of the the three that aren't actually goes to school with me. That cuts three of them out of actual hanging with at school without looking like a loser hanging with a whole group of the year below me and only talking to one of them. And the three that are left, I'm only in one or two of the same classes as they are and I hardly, if ever, get to talk to two of them at home on MSN or whatever.

Reading over the first paragraph I just realised something that the whole thing seems to come down to: Default Friends. People who you wouldn't actually talk to or be friends with, but because they're really tight with one of your good friends, you have to at least be nice to them. I fucking hate this to be honest. As some of you might know, I don't want some friends to intertwine with other friends of mine, I'm not sure if that's selfish or if it's normal but it's who I am and I hate seeing it happen. If it ever start I can never do anythign to stop it because telling someone to stop being friends with someone else because "they're my friend and I don't want you to talk to them" sounds amazingly self centred and would probably ruin my friendship with both of the people involved. I need that kind of seperation in friends, I need to know that I will be able to be with someone different once in a while and excape any monotony that would occur if I was with the same people and only those people every day.

I suppose that is it for this blog, a bit frantic and I didn't really conclude it well but I said what was on my mind and that's what I needed. I know that it's a bit hypocritical with the whole multiple topics in one blog but it's all somewhat related. Please comment and give me any advice you have on any of these topics, especially the first one. Adios my fellow five followers and any others that come and read.

I would like to dedicate this to Cake as he is awesome.